Once Again

I celebrated, do you remember?
Words flowed from my fingers,
Excitement bubbled up inside,
I could see you without feeling,
A first between us, what joy I found,
But it seems it was all a lie.
It was just a phase soon to pass,
Too soon for me, I felt free,
And now I am once again bound,
Dreams assault me nightly,
Marriage and children are all I see,
These things do not frighten me,
It is the man I am with that I cannot have,
The man I wanted for so long,
All I see is you.