Somebody Help Me

I can't sleep.
You're not supposed to be here,
But you won't leave my mind.
It's like withdrawal from a drug;
I survive awhile just fine,
But it gets worse with each passing day.
What can I do to break this hold on me?
It's not right for these thoughts to remain,
Memories of your skin hard and smooth and close,
Painfully claw my nerves,
Yet they'd kill to be given into.
I can't keep up this facade,
But I can't keep pushing them away.

I still need you more than I can have you.
Maybe that's part of the draw.
How do I cure this pain?
Can't you see I'm hurting?
I thought I'd moved on,
Most of me has.
Lately I'm more a cripple than a lady,
A junkie quaking for a fix.
I struggle for my freedom,
But I'm still falling flat on my ass.

Pride is an issue with me;
Admitting something is wrong,
Admitting a failure,
Breaking down and crying,
Nothing short of eternal pain could produce these lines from my lips.
Think of that as I fall on my knees and beg,
Beg for anyone, someone, to help me.
Help me push you from my heart,
Rid my mind of these haunting images.
You have no right to linger,
My defenses are failing,
I'm weaker than ever;
Somebody help me.